"Suicide attempt" is a common expression. Why is it that we don't have the expression"life attempt" meaning the attempt to live one's life in full or are least in halves?

Well, my attempts at living led me from a reluctant womb, (mother had fallopian tubes tied 3 years before I, stubbornly, was born), to being reluctantly loved, but un-reluctantly loving. - I used to love without cause, response or remedy. (Chronic symptoms exhibited from early age. Clingy, undesired, undeveloped child).

I am reluctant to stay still, but I have endurance in my obstinate mobility. Here I am.

Colombian born, half of my heart is Colombian still, but after half a life in Britain, the other half is divided between Britain and the world at large.

I've had many great loves in my life. Some have been called my husbands, but I confess I was never very comfortable being a "wife". I can be very wifely though, in an unassuming and laid back manner.... ask them. I have lived on and off with 4 of them.

Like with a special pudding, I left the best and sweetest for the end... I am having it, a little spoon at a time, loving it, (him, my Superconductive Love) hopefully, till the end of my days.

The honorific title of "mother" or "Ama" or "Woman" or even "Mum",  bestowed on me by my 4 children, is  one that I carry with enormous pride. Me, the weakling, the clingy, the ugly, the undesired and undeveloped, being exalted to, wanted, needed, even loved and admired! I suspect the children won't read this, so there is little chance they correct me. But it is their privilege. I am privileged to feel their love and respect. I do love you and respect you, my children.

Apart from that, I became a reluctant singer (wanted to be a pianist but "not there yet".)

Finally, I landed un-reluctantly on the world of writing 16 years ago when I started writing The Thermodynamics of Love, and attempted the most exciting journey. I am exaggerating a bit. I started writing when I was 8, started my first novel at 11 and completed a different one at 22 (all inSpanish). But I always knew that was what I would do if I lived into my old age. Here it is.  I have drafted 2 more apart from the Trilogy. They will come.